There are times...

when I hate the computer. In fact there was a day not so long ago that I didn't even know how to use Word or my email. In fact, I would have gladly have chucked the computer in the bin if I hadn't thought it would have spelled d-i-v-o-r-c-e for K. & I. I truly despised it! Now it's a love/hate thing. I love the access the net has provided me to practically anything. But on the flip side I hate how freakin addicting it is! It's amazing how it 'sucks' the hours out of my day. And the shopping that is available can definitely wreak havoc on the checkbook. Then just when I am about to unplug the bloody thing & revert to catalog shopping and writing letters by hand **gasps in horror** something really meaningful comes from all the time I spend online. Like the fact that I can easily keep in touch with my loved ones far away that I miss desperately. Or the fascinating women I have 'met' through their blogs...they've inspired me with their fabulous ideas, made me laugh when I need it most & have helped me see that I am pretty normal. It's funny how we'll let strangers see us for who we really are....these are women that I hope I have the pleasure to meet someday. And then...there are a few that have touched me beyond words & really have made me look inside myself and my life. They have challenged me (without even knowing it) to be a better mom, a better wife, a better friend, a better me...... and right now it has been one woman in particular. Her name is Barb. You can find the link to her blog at the right.http://barbkfrommyheart.blogspot.com/ Her story is incredibly sad, but her outlook, her attitude & her spirit are truly inspiring. In the past year she has been to hell & back, but she in a vibrant example of what God wants us to be. I encourage you all to read her blog...not just the last post or 2...but really delve into it. You'll want some time & lots of tissues. My heart aches for her & for her family, but she has chosen to share their pain to help others. And I have to admit she has helped me......although I have never experienced the darkness her daughter Laurie had to endure, her message has brought me out of a bit of a cloud....I want to live every moment to the fullest, I want to enjoy my children every second that I can and hug their sweet little bodies extra tight.....I don't want to be on 'auto-pilot'....I want to LIVE. I know I often joke that I want to be Heidi Swapp when I grow up or I wanna be on Grey's Anatomy......but really when I 'grow up' I wanna be like Barb.....committed to my family, strong in my faith, a REAL woman in my opinion..........anyway......please read her blog & especially tomorrow (March 2nd) keep her family in prayer.